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I know it was immature and irresponsible. I know it goes against all my principles and my personality. But I had to do it. I had to be irresponsible and immature – just for once. Just this one time.

Why? I cannot exactly tell. Maybe it was a way of telling the world (or myself) that I can also go against the tide; that I can also be reckless to the point of stupidity; irresponsible to the point of foolishness. A lot will berate me for my foolishness; my inconsideration. But although it was a regrettable action, I can’t help but admit that if you strip the regrets and the disappointment, I’m actually glad of what I did. I actually believe that what I did resulted to more good than harm – for me and my work, even for my sanity.

What the heck am I talking about? Simple. I just went NCNS (no call, no show) from work the day before my day-off. You could also call it AWOL (absence without leave). And although I was perfectly aware of the protocol, I disregarded it, doing things my own way. My reason? I don’t want to add insult to injury by giving a lie, however conceivable, to my planned absence. I wasn’t absent because I had some excusable sickness. I was absent because I simply wanted to. Because I felt that my sanity demands it. I know the consequences of my absence. I knew what would be affected. I was prepared to face it. I accepted the consequences. Furthermore, I knew that no serious part of my job would be compromised. Heck! The company or queue could survive a day (or night) without me.

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Enlightenment. That was what I somehow felt after reading the Metro article. I’m not even sure who the author was or what edition of Metro magazine it was (I think it was this month’s issue). I was in a hurry reading it as my session in the parlor (I had a manicure – which was sort of therapeutic for me) had almost ended and my mom was already impatiently waiting for me. I perused the article whose title captivated me. I perused it because I could relate to it.

The article talked about quarter life crisis. If we have midlife crisis, it has been discovered that there is also quarter life crisis. This struck young adults as they leave the world of schools and immaturity and enter the world of adulthood and serious responsibility. Of course no one would admit that they were immature when they were in college, not unless one realizes it later on. I, for one, like to think that I have been very mature when I was in high school and in college although when I look back at those times now, I realize my pettiness in the decisions I made.

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