love - Cerebral Insights

Calm Silence, Beaming Smiles

Unknown sentiments yet to be expressed,

Unrestrained convictions like a man possessed.

Emotions and feelings yet to be seen,

Hindered by silence and smiles in between.

The twinkle in your eyes and the smile that beguiles,

Always makes me giddy, makes my life worth while.

Emotions and feelings pure and pristine,

Hidden by silence and smiles in between.

How would I let you know that I love you so,

If only I could show you, if only I could let you know.

My emotions and feelings for you I should have foreseen,

Hampered by my silence and your smiles in between.

The unrequited love for you that I profess

Is far and impossible to attain, I do confess.

These misplaced emotions and feelings has been

Held still by the silence and smiles in between.

Why am I feeling this way?

Why must our paths converge and my life led astray?

These unreciprocated feelings maybe true, but you’re still a dream,

This love’s pace dictated by emotions and silence regime.

My heart screams out your name, breaking the silence,

Passionate with the sight of your smile, its makes much sense

To expend all my resources, everything I can,

To make myself fall in love with you all over again.

By: JVA

Heavier than Heaven

If Heaven is an ocean,

Then you are its gentlest swirl;

The world would be an oyster,

And you are its pearl.

If the daylight has its own beauty

Then you are the rainbow’s hue.

Always an inspiring vision to behold,

Always a breathtaking view.

If the night sky has its starlight,

Then you are a shooting star,

Whom everybody catches

Even when viewed from afar.

If love is defined as perfect

Then I’d rather have it as you.

Like the symmetry of prose

Or the beauty of a rose, just to name a few.

But despite all this, I can never truly tell

That everything would go fine and well.

Thinking of what would I mean to you,

I’ll be forever trapped, trapped beneath the blue.

I could play with words all day

Compare you to realities present and true

But no words can replace what I want to say

And that is, “I truly love you”.

All the words I long to say

Would come out and made known someday.

Up to now, I think we’re pretty even,

Though this concealed feeling is Heavier than Heaven.

By: JVA

Every Me and Every You

I take great solace in your welcoming company

You’re the comfort that takes away my misery

And for that, my love, all I can say,

You make my day anytime, in anyway.

You are my immense joy, my mirth and my smile,

You take away my pains, even for a while,

And for that alone, come what may,

You make my day anytime, in anyway.

You are my inspiration, my wish my desire,

You are the flame in my soul that ignites a fire.

You are the hope, and all my fears allay,

You make my day anytime, in anyway.

Yet sometimes even you could not see,

My innermost yearning for us to be

Something more, something special

Something beautiful and unconventional.

For you, I’ll be someone exceptional,

Someone who’ll show you love unconditional.

I’ll harvest the proverbial stars high up in the sky,

Although impossible, it’s still worth the try.

Now I’m torn and the truth is laid bare

I leave the rest upon your sweet care.

Love me or hate me is the question I’d ask,

A simple matter, yet such a daunting task.

I do apologize that up until now I still persist,

But keep in mind that you’re the reason why I exist.

Though I know this much is true,

Why can’t you see that I love you?

By: JVA

Shadows and glimpses of you

Then there was the fallout,

And both of us were left alone.

I knew this was bound to happen,

I should have known better, I should have known…

How could I ever say “I am sorry”,

After all things went wrong, went awry.

Yet I’d give anything, everything, even sell my soul,

If it means to have you, to love and to hold.

But both of us know that it would never happen,

It would never come true,

Even if the skies would forever darken,

Never for me and you.

All I can do is catch stolen glimpses of you,

All I can do is never be real, never be true.

All I can do is wallow in shadows of you,

Caught up in the past, never really seeing a good view.

I will be content staring at

Shadows and glimpses of you.

I’ll forever be following your shadow,

I’ll be forever caught up in the blue.

I’ll be distant, aloof and away,

I will be silent; I will have nothing to say.

Even if I wanted to be with you, yes, it’s true…

Catching up on stolen glimpses of you.

You’ll be comforting others for a while,

And cheering up others for a time.

You’d be someone else’s sun in their sky,

But I am asking myself, why can’t it be mine?

This is all I have, all I can save

Are the memories of you and me walking away.

Now those memories are just like a receding wave,

Or a setting sun in an abandoned bay.

Ghosts of the past

I was extremely blissful while it did last,

I experienced love that was really true

With shadows and glimpses of you.

By: JVA

forbidden forbidden tsk tsk

i like you
but i know we are not meant for

i like you
for you are smart and nice to talk to
but i know you are not the one for me

i like you
but i know we will never be more than what we are now

i like you
but i know this can go no further

i like you
but i know this must stop now

so why am i not stopping?
why do i continue down the hopeless path?

i know what i must do
i cannot give you up
for you are the reason why i like what i do now

i cannot give you up
for to do so would make my world seem so dull
how long your status for me to be as such would last
i do not know
in time i might find another reason to do what i do
but for the meantime
i hope you stay

i sure hope you don’t find out
how much i enjoy our conversations
how much i look forward to seeing you
how much i long to actually talk to you
how much i yearn for something more

i’ve managed to be true to myself though
i’ve managed to ascertain that if you asked for more
i might not be able to give it

much as i long for more
i know i am not prepared for it
at this point
if one of us yearn for the next level and moved to it
then what we have now would badly suffer

so since i am the one yearning
i will not do anything
i’m content with what we are now
with what we have now
with what is offered now

i do not even wish for anything more in the future
not only is it impossible
i’m afraid it is not proper

so this outburst
if you do read it
treat it as a slip of the cerebrum
the cerebrum’s impunity in allowing the hypothalamus to speak
for much as the hypothalamus tries to voice out
the cerebrum must always control it